Yay!… the lazy blog post! I was gonna do one yesterday because I had a pretty wonderful Holiday Weekend and have been feeling pretty good lately… but didn’t. Oh… I tried. Spent hours trying to figure out what I wanted to share… how I wanted to share it… and realized… there was just too much. There were simply too many fun experiences, interesting situations, positive steps in this new life, good memories, and some sad ones over the last little bit for me to consolidate them into something that would capture the… je ne sais quoi (that’s French!)… warm n fuzzy feeling…?.. with a sense of security….?.. and easiness…? (A feeling of refreshing tranquility and an absence of tension or worry… yup. Thanks google!) So, I watched Unsolved Mysteries instead… and today you get a “Widower” post.
First… some pics from my third 4th of July… in this new life.
And now… a video… about a memory… that keeps coming back.
Thirty Days of Mo(u)rning 
6 thoughts on “2 Days After My 3rd 4th of July… a widower moment.”
jennasnanny04
Hey Darren,
This whole process is totally normal. There are always ups and downs, regrets and happy memories……when life is ” normal” we all do things that may seem less understanding after the bad comes and we look back. I’m sure Kateri didn’t get upset over it, or hold onto that incident. I know how these things pop up in our minds though when we’re going back over stuff.
I’m glad you are having happy experiences now and you truly DO live in a very beautiful place.
Thanks for sharing, as always
Nancy
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Maggie
Darren, I ‘m so glad you had a great holiday and had some fun. That’s important stuff. This week is a grief anniversary for me but it is also a week of wonderful celebration. It can be a crazy mix. Maybe it’s just the salt and pepper of life. My grandfather always told me you can’t plow a straight row when you are looking back over your shoulder. He was pretty smart I think. It’s hard not to have some regrets, especially concerning someone we love. It helps me to remember how much the love overshadowed the other stuff. I hope to get back to Vermont someday. You do live in a great place. Have a great week.
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Darren Lidstrom
Thanks Maggie. I hope you have a great week, as well! And from what I know of your grandfather… sounds like someone I would enjoy chatting with on the porch!
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Elizabeth
I can really connect with the “I wish I was the person I am back then.” The older I get the more that is true. Grief can hijack us, can’t it. Take care.
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Darren Lidstrom
I guess the older we get… the more opportunities there are for us to look back on and learn from. Of course, hindsight can be a bitch sometimes! Take care… too!
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Elizabeth
Thanks.
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