Sometimes… things just happen to show up at opportune moments. I knew I was gonna write a little blurb ahead of the video, but the only note I had made for this post was:
- Just gotta say… today was kinda frustrating
Yup… it WAS a frustrating kind of day! I didn’t sleep much. A change at work made me want to bash my head against a brick wall… covered in down pillows… while wearing a full-face helmet. It took forever… I mean, for..ev..ER! to upload the video I made last night for this little blog post thingamajig. AND… today is the anniversary of Kateri finding out the news that there was a mass in her brain. Yup… frustrating. Plus, I’m still trying to get shit together to send in the mail to family for Christmas!… aahhh! But don’t worry… it’ll all be ok.
As the video was creeping it’s way from my phone to YouTube, I decided to throw on some Seinfeld for something mindless. Kateri and I watched a crap load of Seinfeld over the years, but I haven’t opened the DVD’s in quite some time and just thought it sounded… comforting. I decided to start at the beginning and as I was going through the cases, sandwiched between Season 3 and Season 1 was… low and behold… THE DALAI LAMA! In 2007, Kateri and I were introduced to this chant by our friend David as we would hang at his little cabin up Four Mile Canyon. Now, I don’t know anything about chanting n shtuff, but I DO know that it’s pretty darn relaxing to listen to while the fire dimly lights the room as it keeps the cold at bay and I jot this down. In full disclosure, I’m pretty sure I’ve smoked weed every time this hour and a half long “om-ing” action has taken place… so there’s that, too. Either way… I’m diggin’ it… and kinda needed it.
All of that to say… here’s a video of me walking around my house talking about my third Holiday Season as a widower… my third Christmas without Kateri. I made it because as I was decorating the Schoolhouse, feeling all sorts of emotions, and thinking about all sorts of shit… I thought about other people going through the same type of experience… I thought about my fellow widowed folk. So I made a video of some of the things I’m doing, decorating, and thinking about! (And yes… it’s so exciting that it warranted an exclamation mark..! (sorry, “exciting” might be the wrong word. Maybe “rambley” would be better…? or “awkward”..?))
Thirty Days of Mo(u)rning 
16 thoughts on “My Third Widower Christmas Time!… (The Dalai Lama, Seinfeld, and Darren)”
lssattitudeofgratitude
Happy Holidays Darren. You are moving forward which is all any of us can do. I love your poultry at the top and bottom of the tree. Kateri will always be a light in your heart. Enjoy the merry season.
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Darren Lidstrom
Merry Christmas Eve!!
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Maggie
Darren, I loved the tour through your house and I am happy to see that you can embrace the holiday and be festive. When I decorated my tree this year it hit me that more of my family have passed than are alive. That’s an aha moment. My tree is loaded with memories, too. Your love and celebration of Kateri is evident in all that you do. Merry Christmas, Darren, your perspective is always spot on. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas – and eat ALL the cookies – except what you leave out for Santa of course.
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Darren Lidstrom
Merry Christmas Maggie! I hope you and the hubby have a nice one! And oh my gosh… I need to take a break on the cookies!
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Maggie
We over did the snacks yesterday! Hope you had a lovely Christmas, Darren.
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Brizzy Mays Books and Bruschetta
Had to laugh at your introduction to the black wise man 🙂
Keep smiling matey 🙂
Merry Christmas.
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Darren Lidstrom
Smiling!… I like to smile… I have a lot of things to smile about… and I hope you are smiling about the things you have to smile about, too! Merry Christmas Eve!
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jennasnanny04
Darren, So happy to see your post and video. Your home is charming and the decorations are lovely. I’m SO glad to see that it’s easier for you this year, if that’s the right word.
Have a nice Christmas and the cookies look yummy. How about mail order??!! Lol…..hugs, nancy
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Darren Lidstrom
I’ll totally mail you some cookies!… of course, they’re a couple weeks old now… but I still got some! Merry Christmas Eve Nancy!
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jennasnanny04
I made my butter cookies last week with, of course, King Arthur All Purpose flour! Boy are/ were they good! You mean you actually have cookies left??!! Lol….
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Darren Lidstrom
Aaaaaaaaand….. no more cookies. But I still have one more Pot de Creme left… it’s days (hours) are numbered.
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Elizabeth
Who would return a black wise man? So glad you rescued him. Merry Christmas and I am glad you decorated up a storm. I have yet to do that. Especially loved the little village. I had those at one time and am not sure where they disappeared.
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Darren Lidstrom
I know!? Racist people I guess… that’s who returns little figurines because they’re black… jerks. Merry Christmas Eve!
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Elizabeth
Wonder if they ever figured out Jesus wasn’t white?
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Darren Lidstrom
I don’t think their that smrt! (I’m ok saying mean things about stoopid racist people…!)
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Elizabeth
LOL
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