This simply… hit me. I miss her. And right now… it hurts.
CHICKS!… 2016
Widower Notes n Thoughts:
I wish I could fill in the details of what all that evening entailed… a later date perhaps.- It was an absolutely beautiful experience. It’s a beautiful memory… minus… you know.
- For me… it had kind of a similar feeling as at our wedding…sorta… ish. I/we were surrounded by nothing but friends and family who were there because they loved us… and there was a celebration!… with American Flatbread… and Zero Gravity beer… and Luke cooked a mammal over a flame… and a lot of the same people. A lot of good… good people.
Thirty Days of Mo(u)rning 
8 thoughts on “2.59.424… A year ago tonight… Kateri’s Kick-Ass Party… and I have no words.”
lssattitudeofgratitude
The level of grief ebbs and flows. The good news is the sweet memories remain. You are doing so well dealing with and accepting your feelings. I admire your honesty.
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Darren Lidstrom
Thanks! Ya… that was a pretty good ebb!… or maybe flow… either way it was sort of a doozie!
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Maggie
Darren, I’m so sorry this day hit you so hard, but I do understand it. It’s good you are acknowledging all the feelings and not running away from them. Sometimes we just want things to be like they always were. And it sucks that they cannot be. You are doing a great job of just getting through — one day at a time. That’s all you need to do.
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Darren Lidstrom
Thanks Maggie! Ya, it’s weird wanting the old life, accepting the new life, trying to live in the present… and then getting pulled back into the last twenty years. Life… there’s a lot to it!
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jennasnanny04
The two above comments really say it all. Big sigh…..and I’m so sorry. Thank you for sharing with us all.
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Chelsea Clark
One year milestones are pretty important. It’s amazing how much some things change and yet others stay exactly the same. Sifting and sorting is hard hard work. You’re doing a great job. ❤️
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Darren Lidstrom
Thanks Chelsea! Yup… it’s amazing how the things that haven’t changed… are different. There’s just one thing in my life that actually changed, but the ripple effect is mind boggling!
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Lisa Shoemaker
Darren! You are an inspiration…this whole process is one that you must travel through blindly, unsure of when the sweet memories can visit without the deep pain that is associated with that one change, the change that crushes our entire existence. You my friend travel with dignity & grace, honestly expressing your true emotions & helping others along the way. Thank You!
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